Fuck my life, it's my birthday again. I am yet another year older, hate the day's attention, and currently feel there is nothing on my plate worth celebrating.
For me, birthdays are a time for me to reflect and re-evaluate my life. I become a bit overwhelmed when looking back at this past year. It was a year of extreme highs, and devastating lows. My life always seems to resemble that of a roller coaster. Unfortunately, my trip around the sun's lows far surpassed the highs. I think it's natural to be disappointed in presuming I would be "better off" [in life] by this age. I have always been optimistic and knew that everything would simply work out; I would be happy, and inevitably be successful. I haven't lost hope yet, it just seems life has a different plan for me. Had I known when I was younger, where I would be today, I may have jay-walked a little more, driven a little faster, and possibly attempted to climb Mount Everest. I'm not saying I deserve to be rich and famous, I just feel like it was supposed to be in the cards. With that being said, I am so fortunate to have such a great support system around me. My family and friends really helped pick up the pieces and got me back on track. In tough times, certain relationships have a tendency to grow stronger, and unfortunately some relationships disintegrate. I have so much to be thankful for. I am (for the most part) healthy, I'm not clinically obese or crazy (yet), and have been blessed with a quick-wit. -Which luckily can get me "in-to" and "out-of" trouble; But in any condition my mouth is the equivalent to having a loaded gun ...at a knife fight. -And there are a lot of people that need to be shot down a few pegs this year. For now, I am off to New York to get out of town and celebrate with a few of my favorites! I'll fill you in all about it if/when I get back ;)
