Having anxiety and depression is like being scared and tired at the same time. It's the mind numbing train of thoughts with no perpetual resolution. It's the fear of failure, but no urge to be productive. It's wanting friends, but hate socializing. It's wanting to be alone, but not wanting to be lonely. It's frustrating knowing my self-worth, but not be properly perceived... due to the lack of equal minded individuals around me. It feels like being a giraffe at Sea World; people stare, but at the end of the day, they paid to see Shamu. Hope you enjoy the show! I would much rather be a giraffe, a genus of African even-toed ungulate, and the tallest living terrestrial mammal rather than some fat old whale. It's not my first rodeo, so I understand I need to be patient. In the long run, I like my odds of having a gun in this knife fight. -But not literally. Fuck the NRA.
